the final week(s)
Finally have some peace of mind after coming home for a week. Graduation was an interesting experience for me. It wasn't really a big occasion for me because of the thought that I'd most probably be studying for another year next year, but when the actual day drew closer, the excitement finally kicked-in! I AM GRADUATING, regardless of what happens next. Most importantly, my parents finally came to Australia after waiting for 4 years ( I recall a very emotional morning discussing this with a special someone). Graduation is a very tiring activity - so much energy required to keep smiling for the camera! And you need to walk from place to place to take pictures. I admit I wasn't fully prepared for my parents arrival, but I am proud that I stuck with my plan to bring them to Tetsuya's in Sydney, World Ranked No.5 Restaurant. I made a reservation in May and I am finally going there! Although the dinner was heavy on my wallet, it sure was pleasant and eye-opening experience.
Coming home this time round brings funny feelings to mind. For starters, I didn't plan to come home so early - I want to experience Summer in Australia! and NYE in Sydney! I HAVE TO DO IT AT LEAST ONCE! major hiccup with my summer research plans. I believe there is a reason to it, but I've yet to find out. Probably its for me to just quiet down and relax. =)
Now that I'm home, its back to Malaysian lifestyle - relax aje. I still feel that I'm not due to be home yet, but staying at home has been pretty nice. Made a few purchases (new laptop after 5.5 years!) and met up with some friends. Tried not to think about study plans yet though I only have till end of the year to make a decision. I got offered a scholarship to do my Honours in Economics, which is again affecting my study decision. I have been leaning towards doing a Masters in Actuarial, but afraid I might be specialising too early, or if I still wanted to be an economist. There's this little bit of me that wants to be in the economics field because it is actually interesting.
Prior to coming back, my mind has been unsettled on this study decision, and also accommodation for next year. In the haste of wanting to save money, I applied for a share house (which should work out fine) but my heart was very unsettled one day and I decided that perhaps I am not ready to share facilities with 5 others, yet. Then, in the midst of all these, another worry slowly crept into me.
When we were still in Aust, we were doing fine. Actually, we were catching up on lost time and making up for tense moments during exams. Its hurtful when she just walks away and goes about her own agenda with no regard of how I feel. Felt like she wasn't willing to make that little bit sacrifice. Felt like all she cared was her world. Fine, nevermind, I shall blame it on exams - I can't deny its importance. At the end of the day, its give and take. Some miscommunication happened which led to some really not nice remarks - shocked at first but I'm still willing to work it out. I can only hope this feeling is mutual. Stay strong, think positive.
2009 is coming to an end soon. This year, I am least excited about the new year. Just like I told a friend, now its's all about these 3 things : One big decision, one uncertainty, one rough patch. Not the best of times. On a brighter note, I've been (re-)learning driving and catching up with friends bit by bit. Of course, one has to look forward to a trip down South in January!
Coming home this time round brings funny feelings to mind. For starters, I didn't plan to come home so early - I want to experience Summer in Australia! and NYE in Sydney! I HAVE TO DO IT AT LEAST ONCE! major hiccup with my summer research plans. I believe there is a reason to it, but I've yet to find out. Probably its for me to just quiet down and relax. =)
Now that I'm home, its back to Malaysian lifestyle - relax aje. I still feel that I'm not due to be home yet, but staying at home has been pretty nice. Made a few purchases (new laptop after 5.5 years!) and met up with some friends. Tried not to think about study plans yet though I only have till end of the year to make a decision. I got offered a scholarship to do my Honours in Economics, which is again affecting my study decision. I have been leaning towards doing a Masters in Actuarial, but afraid I might be specialising too early, or if I still wanted to be an economist. There's this little bit of me that wants to be in the economics field because it is actually interesting.
Prior to coming back, my mind has been unsettled on this study decision, and also accommodation for next year. In the haste of wanting to save money, I applied for a share house (which should work out fine) but my heart was very unsettled one day and I decided that perhaps I am not ready to share facilities with 5 others, yet. Then, in the midst of all these, another worry slowly crept into me.
When we were still in Aust, we were doing fine. Actually, we were catching up on lost time and making up for tense moments during exams. Its hurtful when she just walks away and goes about her own agenda with no regard of how I feel. Felt like she wasn't willing to make that little bit sacrifice. Felt like all she cared was her world. Fine, nevermind, I shall blame it on exams - I can't deny its importance. At the end of the day, its give and take. Some miscommunication happened which led to some really not nice remarks - shocked at first but I'm still willing to work it out. I can only hope this feeling is mutual. Stay strong, think positive.
2009 is coming to an end soon. This year, I am least excited about the new year. Just like I told a friend, now its's all about these 3 things : One big decision, one uncertainty, one rough patch. Not the best of times. On a brighter note, I've been (re-)learning driving and catching up with friends bit by bit. Of course, one has to look forward to a trip down South in January!
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